by Hiroyuki Ishikawa, from Japan living in Mozambique
I joined the Salvia Mind Control School. While there it was as if I saw before me people that died long ago. It seemed as if they came up to me to speak to me. In fear, as this happened, I cried out to the gods, "Please help me! Please help me!"
But there was no answer.
So I decided, "If the gods will not help me, I will see what yoga can do to help me."
However, when I did this, another strange thing happened to me. I began to hear voices in my head. When this happened, I feared even to go to bed at night.
Why am I alive?
Another problem that troubled me was the question, "Why am I alive?" You see I could find no real purpose for living. I then decided, "I will travel the world. In this way, I may find a reason for living."
So I travelled to Africa and then to Europe. But I still could find no real answer to the question "Why am I alive?" So I thought, "Maybe it would be better for me to kill myself?"
I could listen to these songs for ever
But one day in England, someone said to me, "Come with me to my church."
Now at this Christian church, I went to sleep when the leader talked! However I did ask myself there, "Why do I experience such peace of mind when I hear these people sing their Christian songs?"
I felt as if I could listen to these songs for ever. Then I thought, "Maybe through this Jesus who these people sing about, I can find God's help."
So I decided, "I will try speaking to God in the way these people do."
Now when I did this, I found the peace of mind that I wanted. I also found a real purpose for living. God now helps me tell other people how they can be changed. I live in Mozambique where I help people understand God's purpose for their lives.